Mum's death was devastating but there is hope
It's nearly two years on since Mum died and I still miss her being there. I have pictures around and talk about Mum to friends and family who knew her, but what I wouldn't do to pick up the 'phone for a chat or to pop round to see her. But most of all I feel so blessed and fortunate to have had her in my life for 42 years, guiding me, supporting me and laughing with me. I have realised that, in fact, she is still very much a part of me and my life. She is there in most things I do, say and think, and she always will be.
I remember the time not long after her diagnosis when she cried and told me that it wasn't dying that she was scared of, but the fear of leaving us all. Well, she hasn't left us. She is still very much a part of me and my life. This leaves me with a great sense of joy. Life is now different, but still as positive. I realise now that life not only goes on, but it is great, and colourful, and just as good as it was when she was still here. Just how she would want it to be. So for those of you facing the most challenging times of your lives, I hope this gives you some strength.
All good wishes, Clive.